Summer so far

Hmmm....well its about two weeks of summer and I suppose its an ok summer so far. With a balance of boredom and fun its been alright. Although I still haven't found a job yet. Still haven't found any inspiration yet to write any poetry, its kinda frustrating since when I don't have time to write poems I get inspiration and when I have the time I don't have any inspiration. Anyway I'll be going to Mississippi to visit my grandparents and relatives on July 2nd, so if anyone is looking for me I'll be in Mississippi from July 2nd to the 16th. Alright I'll probably post one more time before I go to Mississippi since I won't have access to a computer for a long while until I get home again. Later.

Summer

Wow, just about a whole week of summer has just past. For the most part its been quite boring, unless I go out and hang out with friends. Otherwise I'm just stuck at home. Dang I really do need a job or something to keep me busy for the most part of the day. I could go out somewhere and try to write some of my poetry, but lately its been difficult to get inspiration so kinda meh on writing some poetry unless i get any inspiration anytime soon. Anyway that's how my summer's been going lately. How has your summer been?

College has been over for about a week and I miss all the ucr friends that I've made. Its kinda hard not to think about them at times when I walk out my door. Since everyone would be just a walk down the hall, now everyone is back at their respectful homes and its kinda hard to see them now. Even back at home people are going vactioning and I won't be seeing them for a while. So its kinda sad but at times I feel alone.

I don't know why I feel this way. Even though I know that I shouldn't feel this way. I guess I can't stop feeling this way since lately I've had a lot of time to sit and reflect, and usually when I start to reflect I kinda get sad/depressed. So I suppose that this feeling of being alone is a result of this. Anyways I apologize to my readers who've read this entire depressing post, but I just had to get it out of my system.

Friendships

Been thinking over the past few days since the weekend, which may be a bad thing since when I start to think I begin to reflect upon some stuff and then get a little depressed. Anyways lately I've been thinking about friendships and the concept of friends. Friendship helps to bring together strangers and making them friends. My definition of friends is that its: someone who's willing to help you in time of need, someone who you can turn to for advice, someone you can hang out with, someone you can joke around with, someone who you can have fun with, someone where those awkward silences aren't awkward, and someone who you can always count on. I know that many people probably have differing views on the definition of a friend to them. Along with varying definitions on what a friend is, the meaning of friendship to other people will also be different. To one person friendship could mean how useful that friend is or friendship could mean how comfortable one feels with that friend. Nonetheless with all these varying degrees of meanings of friendship its really sad to see how low some friendships mean to people.

For me I value friendship very highly. This is why I'm willing to help any of my friends when they need help. Although I'm unsure of how my other friends view me as a friend to them, but I consider myself lucky and blessed for having such great friends. So thank you my friends for being such great friends. Every experience that I've gone through with my friends has taught me valuble lessons that will help in along in life.

Now for the slightly depressing portion of the post. Even though the friends that I have are great its sort of difficult to not think about how whether or not if we'll still be friends in the future. For example in high school I made a lot of friends my senior year, and then almost everyone separated as a result of the different colleges that we went to. Despite us being apart during the school year I still feel that the bonds that we share will hold us together. So even if my friends do drift apart from each other, I will do my best to keep in touch with them. This also applies to my friends that I've met in college too. So a great big thank you goes out to all my friends.