Crazy Dreams...

Today when I took my nap after my physics discussion from 7:40am to 8:30am I had three distinct dreams within my 45 minutes of napping. My first dream for some reason Donald Duck was in it I guess I was watching a cartoon or something and then for some reason Donald Duck inherited an old boat and he was looking through the doors and then one door he opened had several dead bodies hanging in the room. Then I heard the name "Blue Beard" whispered in my ear and I really freaked out and I thought I woke up since I was in my bed. Except my body did not want to move when I told it to move, I felt a lot of fear in me because of this. Then I think I supposedly "woke up again" except this time I was telling Aaron my dreams and someone else can't remember. Then I'm back in my room and for some reason we have a third roomate in our tiny room for two. I remember stumbling around our apartment a little bit then I really woke up and was kinda freaked out by all those dreams.

Life loves to kick us when we're down....

Gonna rant for a little bit, but my skinned knees from my fall off my longboard (see my previous post for it) are starting to really bother me now. Anyways it just seems that when one bad thing happens a whole chain of bad things continue to happen to me. Too bad its never the other way around where a chain of good events occur, but I guess that's not meant for me...

It just seems lately that after I've fallen off my longboard that all my little mistakes I've made in the past all catch up to me now. I really don't know why bad things happen to me, but I guess its probably because I'm not meant to stay happy. Only to enjoy short periods where I can enjoy life and the other times I should not be happy. I dunno if I'm feeling a little sad because of all the things that are following my fall off my longboard. I'm not sure if life is being cruel to me on purpose by kicking me while I'm down, but its doing a really good job at applying the physical and mental pain to me. Whatever, you know what don't take this post seriously no one really does.

Edit: To anyone whose played Indigo Prophecy for the PS2 then you'll understand this. After what has happened after I fell off my longboard I have lost 60 points of my mental status, so its -60 mental status...

-Bye

Hurting...

Ouch...had my first real big fall of my longboard, and for those of you who didn't know I got a longboard. Me and Aaron were coming back to our apartment and then we took a shortcut through a parking lot of a another apartment comlex and then I was going over a speedbump and I guess I didn't put enough weight on the back of my longboard because it just slipped right out from under me, or it could've been also that it was kinda wet from the sprinklers. Anyways to give you an idea of how badly I ate it, my jeans I was wearing both have a cut in both knees, and my knees are pretty beat up and my hand is kind of cut up. Unfortunately I don't have adequate first aid equipment at my apartment so I'm making due with toilet paper and cotton balls as bandages for my knees and hand. Alright excuse me while I go nurse my wounds from my fall...

Edit: It sucks to skin my knees the way I did, I can barely move because they hurt so much

Random Stuff...

Hmmmm...haven't posted in a while since my last post so I guess I'll think of some random stuff to either rant, rave, or reflect on. What to talk about?... Hmmm.. hopefully this subject won't sound all that cliche even though it probably will, but here we go anyways.

I find it interesting that in some shape or form people are going to change and that there is no way of avoiding change since it can take place almost all around us. Much like the Keane song "Everybody's Changing" you may feel that everything around you is drastically changing, but you might not realize it but you are changing as well. From all my friends I've seen them change in some way and even in me I've changed slightly even if its not noticeable but I believe that I've changed a little. I like to think that I've become slightly less shy and a little more confident in myself. Hopefully I've changed for the better, but I suppose its all how people would perceive these changes in me. Hmmm...well its seems that I'm done with this post.

Early Morning Reflections...

These were the few things that I was thinking about before I went to sleep last night at about 2ish and since I had a class at 7:40am I might as well write about my thoughts before I slept because right not I'm not tired yet. So here are my thoughts from last night...

I've been watching and rewatching Scrubs and it is quite an awesome show because of the lessons one can learn from watching. The near cartoon comedy is hilarious and yet the show still manages to get the lesson across.

I think that a quality that everyone can do without is anger. Since anger serves barely any good purpose, it only is there to hurt others or oneself. One can get angry from many things: arguments, a bad day, or how things just don't go your way.

I believe that many many people get angry at others primarily through arguments. Since when anytime anyone is involved in an argument no one is not left angry. Even the times when I get into agruments with my brothers even if I'm not at fault I still get a little angry. Since I've been in many quarrels with my brothers I know a thing or too about how people can get angry or upset, which is pretty much everybody but I'm going to reflect about it.

Mainly I've seen that the two parties involved get upset and then get angry because they concentrate all their anger from other things into being mad at that one person. People can get really mad/pissed at people who are: loved ones, siblings, or good even best friends. It seems when people are mad they tend to think about all the negative qualities about the other person or party since they are concentrating all their anger at everything at that person since they unluckily triggered it. To people who stay mad for really long periods at people I say that you suck because if you think about it people don't really mean to do anything. Even if you're playing around and something happens such as someone gets hurt. I wrestle with my brothers sometimes and since I don't know my strength I sometimes accidently hurt my kid brother and since he's younger than me he gets all upset and then he stays mad at me so he ends up not talking to me for the duration that he is mad. Even after I realize what I've done and apologize my kid brother is being a bit of a brat by staying mad at me, but I guess he's allowed to since he hasn't realized that its stupid to stay mad at people for long periods of time, but if your a mature adult then I think you might be a little immature by acting that way. I may sound a little biased but these are my thoughts so :P. Also another point I want to make is how when people are mad/pissed at you they seem to forget all the good things that the other person has done, it seems that the anger wipes away everything all the good. If the person you're mad at is a good friend who's done a lot of things to help you then isn't it kind of stupid to remain mad at them since they probably aren't mad at you, and they may have been able to admit that it was their fault and apologized, but maybe you haven't said anything to them.

The reasoning why people can remain mad at a good friend, loved one, or sibling is beyond me because for me I don't remain that mad at anyone since I try to understand both perspectives from a neutral point and determine just how stupid I am for being mad at my friend, loved one, or sibling. Some possible reasons for people to remain mad at the other person despite the good things they've done out of love or friendship could be that: they are stubborn, just naturally angry, or just plain mean. Those such possible reasons all depend on what kind of person who is angry. For me if someone makes a mistake and its a trivial thing I don't make a big deal of it and if people say sorry I tell them don't worry about it since there was nothing to apologize because I'm not mad. However, if that same trivial mistake occurred and I got all upset or mad then the person who made me mad would feel bad and apologize. If right now you are mad at someone and they're a loved one, sibling, or a good/best friend then try to understand that the other party feels bad and they might not even be mad at you anymore despite you being mad at them. So in closing I just want to say "Mean people Suck" which I have seen on a few t-shirts and also if you're mad at someone still over something trivial, maybe you were playing around and then someone got hurt or you got into an argument, and whatever method you chose to deal with your anger with the other person, whether it be not talking to them, avoiding them, or just continuing to be mean. Let me ask you something then, how does the other person feel? Probably bad since if they were the one who made the mistake and whatever treatment you give them is probably making it worse and if the other person is a loved one, sibling, or good/best friend. Then why are you making them feel bad and only exacerbating it by treating them poorly despite the good things they've done out of love or friendship? Even if you don't deal with a problem by talking it out normally then you probably should because it will probably ease both of your pains by finding out the cause of the mistake, even if its stupid cause then its still good to talk since now both of you know that you're cool and everything is good. Being angry at people can hurt both physcially and mentally and I've found it to be more taxing on the mental pain.

Anyways I'm not sure if this makes sense but hey I've had 5 hours of sleep and I've been up since about 7am, but this is my blog so my rants, raves, and reflections.

Meh...

Ran 3 miles today, the first time since cross-country/track. I ran it on the track and its really hard to keep track of what lap your on. I think I'm really out of shape since cross-country and track since I really felt dead after running and even now at 2:51am I'm still feeling sore even after streching before and after. I'm probably gonna really feel sore tomorrow morning. Anyways thats it goodnight.

New Years and Stuff that happened before it...

Happy New Years Everyone! So many people probably have made some New Years Resolutions and I have made a couple. 1. To never procrastinate on studying and to keep up with the material 2. Get better at the guitar, got an electric one from my uncle kinda old but it still works so its cool. 3. To not be so scared of roller coasters. Those are my New Years Resolutions I know that its a short list but it'll help me keep all of them for the new year. One thing that sucks is having to work New Year's eve and New Year's day, which is what I have to do. Anyways a little recap on what I can remember on the past week.

Thursday:
I took Sami to Disneyland. I packed everything we might need for that day: some snacks, water, and money. I think I fell asleep around 1ish that day. Well I couldn't sleep that well that night, I guess I was too excited so I ended up dosing off a few times but mostly tossing and turning. It was about 4:45am and I couldn't sleep so I decided to get up and get ready if I didn't dose off by 5:10am, so I did not dose off so I got up, ate breakfast, changed, and then got gas. Then around 7am I left to go pick up Sami, after I got Sami we went to pick up her friend Sandy, who works at Disneyland. So after I picked up Sandy and she bought us tickets at a discounted price. Since Sandy had to go around 10 we managed to ride the maddahorn? (the ride in the snow moutain with the snowmonster) and the astroblaster. Then we got a fast pass for space moutain and went to California Adventure. We had lunch and Sandy managed to get us a discount for it, thanks Sandy, and after lunch we went on tower of terror. I don't like roller coasters that much and I really don't like free fall rides, I think I griped the hand bar on that ride too tight since one of my knuckles started to hurt after we got off. After that we went on the sunwheel and Sami went to go get fast passes for California Screaming. When we went on the sunwheel we shared the gondola with a really nice old man who talked to us while we were on that ride. Then I played one of those games and won Sami a blue stingray which she named Raymond. After that we went on California Screaming, and while we were walking towards the ride we saw a group of people wearing orangeish uniforms and I saw them a few times going around the park I wondered what team they were. Turns out they were the Texas Longhorns, who are to play in the Rosebowl against USC, and the funny thing is as we were about to get on the roller coaster I saw #21 LenDale White from USC going towards the exit. That was pretty cool since its like seeing a celebrity. Then after California Screaming we watched the block party, then it was off to Space Mountain. I have to admit that riding it that day was my first time riding it, and I was really scared since I'm really scared of roller coasters and I heard that Space Mountain was the scariest roller coaster in Disneyland and that kinda scared me more. However, once I got on it it wasn't so bad it was actually fun. Then we went to find a spot for the parade and the fireworks show. It was so hard to find a spot since it was so crowded, but we finally found a spot and sat down. Then we ate a turkey leg for dinner and we waited for the parade, which was very pretty. Then came about an hour waiting for the fireworks, only bad thing was I was stuck in an uncomfortable position since I sat hunched amongst the crowd. Somehow I managed to dose off for 15 or 30 mins, and pretty soon the fireworks came and it was very cool and then the snow came, too bad it didn't blow in our direction. After the fireworks and the crowd dispersed we visited Cat who was working at a churro stand. Then we tried to go on a few more rides before the park closed. We managed to go on the Haunted Mansion and Pirates of the Carribean. It was cool since those rides we got in so fast like about 10 mins or so for each. Then I got a 50th anniversary Mickey Ears for Sami and got it engraved for her and she got me one too ^__^. Sandy got off work so we met up with her and then visited Cat again. Then we all went to a Dennys and ate and then I took Sami and Sandy home and it was about 3ish when I got back home. All in all it was a long but very very fun day ^__^.

Happy New Years Everyone again!