saddness

Saddness...an interesting feeling that can be brought upon by just about anything: a bad day, sad movie, tragic event, death, etc. The reason why I decided to dedicate this post to saddness is because for some odd reason I've been feeling it a lot the past few days and I want to sort of explore the reasoning behind saddness and to sort of reflect upon it too.

As I stated above saddness can be caused by some sort of stimulus, but oddly enough for me the past few days I've just been feeling sad just for no particular reason. This I cannot really explain why. I thought of the possible reasons that I could be sad yet none of them had any relevance to the cause of my saddness. So it kinda sucked for me these past few days since for no reason I've just been sad for no reason. This kinda lead to me being mad/frustrated since I could not figure out why I felt so sad and it was hard for me to feel any joy. Although there were some points where I had fun and enjoyed myself and that was probably when I was able to go out. Other than that I was I guess you could say miserable.

The saddness that I've been feeling for the past few days is a very particular feeling since its not the type of saddness where you can just cry it off and feel better later. This sort of saddness sort of stuck and only seemed to serve to make me miserable. Its a rather odd feeling this saddness that I felt for the past few days. It felt as if there were a huge lump of saddness inside me and it just weighed me down. The only way that seemed to stave off the saddness was when I found ways to distract myself such as playing video games, WOW, or anything that would seem to get my mind from thinking about it. Unfortunately after I'm done with whatever I'm doing the saddness just comes right back.

Anyway just wanted to reflect upon this really interesting feeling that I've had for the past few days. For anyone who cares I'm doing better now not so sad now. Sorry to all those people who are now probably depressed since you read such a depressing post. Alright later.