Ramblings

Been a long time since I've been on my blog. May have lost some readers but I suppose its understandable since one wouldn't check something that they know won't be updated. Kinda got a sort of emo ranting/rambling since I haven't ranted/rambled in a while.

I suppose for some odd reason that I've been feeling like a whole lot of bad things keep happening to me. Since one bad thing has happened one after another. The bad events vary from bad, to very bad, to worse. With a few good things that happen to me. I guess with all those bad things that keep happening to me I just feel sad or pessimistic because I try to think positively, but a bad event comes along and slams that positive thinking down. Perhaps I just have to improve my mood and then good things will start to happen. Thinking back to psychology maybe my mindset is just setting myself up for self-fulfilling prophecies, where I think a bad thing will happen and then it happens.

Maybe something that I'm looking for could be some event that will help boost my moral, but with my luck I'm not too sure. Sometimes I believe that someone out there must have a Marcus voodoo doll and they poke me with a needle or something and then something bad happens to me. Since it seems that so many bad things happen to me it seems kind of sad because I don't know if I deserve it or maybe its bad luck. In times like these I liken myself to Ted from Scrubs since so many bad things happen to him for no reason that its kinda funny in the sad way. Anyways hopefully I didn't dampen anyone's spirits on my account since I'm ranting/rambling and being kinda emo. Just got to look toward the future and hope for the best.