More Reflections

Two blog posts within the same week!?! Must be my mind is drifting off to my thoughts that can keep me up at night. Oddly enough I don't know if I'll be able to cognitively describe what I want to reflect upon since I'm really really tired and probably bored. Here goes anyways.

Acknowledgment, we all want to acknowledged for our achievements and such. Although what if one wanted acknowledgment so that they know that they aren't alone. An example I've used before is in Naruto where the main character Naruto strives for being acknowledged because he was ignored since he has the 9 tailed fox imprisoned within him. I feel like Naruto since I know that my personality isn't that great and won't impress anyone at the beginning.

It is difficult for me to make new friends since I need to know if I can trust them or not, due to my housing fiasco during the beginning of this year. So I'm not sure if the people I'm getting to know up in Sacramento if I'm treating them as just classmates or friends. Since because of my personality I'm naturally a loner and at times I crave the interactions of others. I know I need to make friends and that it's almost a year past and that I need to get to know people. I know many people in my class, don't get me wrong I know a good amount of people. I guess its the activities that I do outside of class. I play basketball with some classmates even though I suck really badly when I do play.

I reflect upon how I've gotten out of a couple relationships and I guess it may be due to them that I have a hard time believing people want to be friends with me without an alternate agenda. I know that I work hard in class and that some people ask me questions and such. I've had experiences where I was not sure if people were my friends because they wanted to or if they wanted something from me.

Although my friends back at home I'm truly blessed because with them I feel I can trust and that they can accept me for who I am. Maybe I need more time before I can find people like that up here in Sacramento but I guess I gotta take some things slow and I'll get good at it.