Angry

Something that really pisses me off is that when I'm nice to some people they just treat me like crap. I put up with their crap and I was nice even when I was annoyed at them.

People who know me, know that I'm a pretty nice guy but it just sucks that when I'm nice it means crap to them. Well perhaps then I should avoid people like this since friends and people who care about me would not treat me like that. Argh I'm just upset right now and I'm trying to vent it out since I don't want to go to sleep angry.

Maybe I should just be meaner that way I can retaliate against those people who treat me like crap. Ugh just really upset after trying to talk with someone and be nice to them, and they just treat me like crap. Maybe I should just be blunt and say you know what I'm trying to be a good friend and you're treating me like crap and I'm not going to take this anymore. This helped a little bit venting but sometimes I wish I could hurt those people who treat me badly so they know what it feels like.

Something Precious

We all have something precious to us. Whether it be our intelligence, a significant other, or an item that holds a lot of sentimental value. If we were to lose our precious thing to us how would one react. Sadness would be an obvious answer and probably anger at the loss of it.

However what if that precious thing was stolen from you? How would you react? Anger, sadness, and bitterness would probably how one would react to such a thing. One may become embittered at the world for why such a thing had to happen. One would also become cynical at the world. We all would like to think that when we have that precious thing that it won't be taken from us because we consider it so valuable. Like a child when a toy is taken away we get upset, only it lasts longer and probably would have a profound effect. Perhaps one would go so far as to enact revenge to get even for their loss to make others feel the pain that they have caused them.

Although what if one were to break free of that and react in a way that is different. Such as instead of bitterness and anger one felt compassion and forgiveness. If you caught a thief who stole something from you, would you forgive them and let them go? Or would you punish them for what they did since to make them feel the pain and sorrow they caused you for their actions? Many would probably call me foolish or naive, but I have had something precious stolen from me and it hurt me pretty badly. As I stated earlier I could have reacted in a way to enact my revenge upon those who have hurt me, but I reacted with compassion and forgiveness. I know many would probably call me a fool, but I feel that even if I did enact my revenge I would only be continuing a vicious cycle of hurt and if you know me I'm a sensitive kind person and I hate to see others suffer. Those who read this you can call me a fool, stupid, or whatever but I feel that the way I reacted is right and that this is the path I will walk in my life. In the end I feel that one reaps whatever they sow and the actions of those who hurt others it will eventually catch up to them and they will get what's coming to them.

Wondering?

I wonder how many of my friends or people I know still read this blog? Just a random thought to keep myself from studying for my finals which is in about 15 or so hours. Whatever...keep thinking about events from last year that were tough on me, but even though I may not know why those events occurred I know that one thing is that I'll be able to stand up from all that pain I've felt from it and move forward in my life...haha this became a longer post than necessary. Anyways I'm excited to be going home soon after finals, I've missed my family and friends a lot.